my closest friend

if i were to be asked on this question, i would quickly answer.. the LORD.

yesterday during mrii shanghai young adult fellowship sharing session by ko irwan, this question popped out again. i answered the question with the same answer.

wait, i thought. am i too theoretical? am i really living what i say?

i quickly identify the logic on how i derive my answer.

it starts with the definition of 'closest friend'. to me, my closest friend is with whom i could:
- be who i truly am
- confess my weaknesses and failures
- share joy and happiness with
who is the person that will see my true color and also get the share of joy and happiness?

many people give the answer of 'parents'. to my personal case, my parents are the closest people on earth i could be who i truly am, in showing all my bad behavior, weaknesses and failures. however, i could not categorize them as my closest friends because if i do, i am bad. they hardly ever receive the share of joy and happiness. as long as i could remember, the closer people at my proximity receive those. in short and frank way of saying it, parents get all the 'rubbish', friends get all the 'sweet stuffs'.

i realize this yesterday night and feel sorry to my own parents. i make a commitment to share more joy and happy stories and less... less grumble.

thus, i still believe that the LORD is the closest friend i could ever have, in sad moments and in happy moments He receives myself openly both as He promises.

this started since the incident in 2006 with one of my 'closest friend' back then, that i resolve to share everything, first to the LORD before to any other person. only after i receive peace from Him and confident on the way to resolve the issue is not contrary to biblical teaching that i will share it with other to receive more feedback. i realize that in this way, my way of living and relationships with Him is more stable and i am not easily shaken by what others feed in.

also, i have started praying that my future life partner will be my closest confidant, who i could listen from and pour the joy of my life to.

soli Deo gloria :)