many are given into my life and the three highlight are:
1. accountable friends
since ever i prayed to God to show my purpose of life, i realize that i am in need of accountable friends, who are close enough to understand my real self and to give trustworthy feedback, especially in the area i need improvements. i have some friends that consistently get my prayer points and pray for me. specifically for feedback, interestingly i realize that it was through a non-active christian that teaches me hard, right at the points. her initial is wl. i respect her so much for although we had hard times in our friendship (i wonder if she was to read this she will not comment anything :p), she criticizes my weaknesses but able to generally stay objective. although there was a period of time when i was too afraid even to build eye contact with her and i checked online dictionary to check my usage of english words before talking to her, i admire her since the beginning for her vast knowledge and sharp, critical thinking skill. thank God for once we chat for 3 hours when she was on business trip to shenzhen last october 2010.
frankly, i feel kind of 'terrorized' for her correcting every single mistakes of mine. BUT, in the end i realize that she cares me. i do not think she bothers to correct other people's mistakes whom she doesn't care.
also.. i think if GOD were to be seen by my human eyes and chose to closely disciplining us, i will definitely feel terrorized for failing His perfect standard.
2. serving in the church
i have been avoiding to assume any position of service in church since 2003. i afraid of serving with wrong motivation, i.e. as a self-realization. also, i saw many times people were busy preparing the programs rather than to focus on God. i was very touched and excited when i was asked to contribute in preparing a special program for the church christmas celebration back on 18 december 2010. since long, i regard that the position as the event programmer is the most challanging one because one needs creativity to realize the concept to be delivered to audience into reality with the available talents and capabilities. in additional, only in the early of this semester that i became the church-regular. in this sense, 'an outsider' needs to earn trust before having the natural leader's authority and respect.
i had a mixed feeling in accepting the position at first because i was asked to help, not that i was offered the position. the consequences were clear: my time to do personal target, that is to spend more time with the locals, learn bible verses and pray in chinese, would be very minimum. i saw too that i would not be able to concentrate to my study well. i was preparing my hanyu shuiping kaoshi (hsk) too. but, i had faith that this service was from Him. i have prayed for long that once i was offered a church service by someone, who knows my capability and personality quite well, i would respond positively.
like the story of peter and friends when they were fishing and gained nothing after almost the whole day, Jesus Christ came at the right time. the Lord provided all, the exact instruction how to do His service (He pointed to peter where to release the net), the instrument (the unbroken net) and the people to share Gospel with (the abundant fish). we, who are called to be His work partner only need to do one thing, that is to respond positively and believe (peter put down the net as instructed and pulled it when the net was full of fish). what a wonderful way to witness His miraculous work. everything has been provided for us to witness and rejoice in His glory!
3. sharing faith
i have been praying for opportunity to share my faith with ex-colleagues, both in panasonic and motorola. one of them was mok lumin. i have been praying for him since 2007, since i started working there, wishing that a friendship could be built and with sincerity i could share my faith to the Lord. at last, on 31 december 2010, i managed to openly share my faith to Him and urge him to look into Bible teaching seriously. he did not give me a specific response but at least, he was reminded.
resolutions
the two resolutions are
1. regular quiet time including regular check on motivation in doing things and pray more regularly for other.
2. be an on-time person
i have started to pray on this since 5 years ago and this resolution is not achieved yet.
"punctuality is the politeness of kings" - Louise XVIII
3. to know him more and deeper
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